Living with jake was great, Lucy got sex and a loving , safe environment . The children were amazing , and for a time she was okay . However Lucy wasn’t truly happy . She still didn’t quite .. fit . She sighed , doing her hair and makeup for the day .
Lucy had planned . By the time anyone found out it would be too late . Plans had been made , money moved and the chance for stoppping it would be gone .
A small letter would be in the kitchen bench for Jake .
. “ Dearest Jake .
Please do not worry for me , please do not cause yourself concern none of this is your fault . Please know that I’ll always be grateful for you and watching over you .
I tried jake , I tried but this world just doesn’t need me jake . I don’t have a calling to be here , Frank is watching the farm .
Thank you for trying jake , trying to help me . I’ll never forget your help and I pray you get rewarded in kind one day . If I had a patronus I know it would be you .i would want it to be you Jake .”
Lucy was on top of a bridge , looking down . The water calm , she looked down. The water seemed to be strangely calm even though it was rushing through below underneath . There were so many options she could have taken but she didn’t choose any others . She wanted to be peaceful , this seemed the best way . Closing her eyes . The moment of peace overcame her . She jumped .
She felt the water but only for a second , she kept her eyes closed . A white light took over her, calmness encompassed her body . Her body had water going into her lungs , but she didn’t try swim to the top . The white light and calmness outweighed the fear .
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