Dear Diary,
I am so sorry I haven't written to you, but a lot has happened. I found out that my father wasn't my real father and that someone my mother had a one night stand with was in fact my biological dad. I have been through so much since finding this out, but do you know what? This has made me such a stronger person, I mean I thought I was strong before but now that I have been finding myself, it has gotten so much better if you ask me. I still have my short panic attacks but I have gotten through them by breathing. What I am trying to say is that I feel like a whole new person. I think my parents and my siblings dying was kind of a good thing... Not in a mean way but in a way where I don't have to relay on them when I am down.
Them dying opened my eyes that one day people you love will no longer be here and as much as it hurts when it happens, its okay to continue on life without them. Yes I have thought about suicide but then I wouldn't get to be what I always wanted to be. A mother, a healer, I love knowing that kindness and smiles can bring joy to those who never have had it before, but now then can get free kindness and smiles from me. I love being Elena Elizabeth Bliss. I will always be me and no one can change that for the world. I am going to be strong from here on out and make sure my green eyes are open to the things around me. That way when life comes down to it, I can be someone else's anchor.
- Elena Elizabeth Bliss
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